Wheowr School

bus ride is great

mm what can I say

-6:53

okay finally people are talking 

-7:07

Mkay so I was busy like all day so idk the times

But first I have language arts

With like 3-5 of my good friends

Then French with 1-2

Then biology with 1, but probably 2 soon

Then orchestra ( everyone in orchestra is friends )

Then lunch with like 5 of my friends 

Theeeeen. Algebra 2 with 0 of my good friends. A few people from the tennis team though.

Then.. Computer Graphics with no people I even know xD

Then History with like 1-3 good friends

School - The Night Before

So. Just chillin in my bed.

I'm FREAKING out.

Not just because of Whodunnit.

I'm not unmasking the killer because maybe one of you readers is just about to watch the last episode idk.

I so called it though.

Anywho, I'm not even worried about getting lost, or my classes- not yet at least. IM FREAKING OUT ABOUT MY LOCKER- IDK IF IT WILL OPEN

-10:09 PM ;; August 18

School

Hello fellow readers! So, school probably has already started, or is getting ready to start for you guys. For me, school starts tomorrow- August 19th.

This will be my first day in high school! And of course you know I will blog about it!! If you do watch my YouTube Channel, AccompanyPolaris, I apologize once more for the lack of videos. My parental controls on the computer make it practically impossible to edit a video and upload it in such a short amount of time. However, I urgently want to make a video, so I'm trying!

Recently I haven't been able to sleep as much. Maybe it's because I've been going into physiological, wise Maegan a lot recently. Maybe it's because I have inspiration running through my veins.

Maybe it's because I want someone to finally notice me for who I am. Someone who can look past my fake smiles and see the girl who needs someone.

Maybe it's because I'm over thinking everything.

Nonetheless, I'm really stressed about school. School used to be so easy for me, until I realized how much stress is put on me to do well- along with the challenging courses.

Freshman year I want to take it slow. I don't want any drama like I had last year. Surprisingly, no boy drama last year. Usually the drama is boys and then friends. For normal people. But for me it was friends and then boys. 

The only boy trouble that I had was when Kayden and Hayden moved away. Still can't believe they left. For those of my new readers, Kayden was sort of my boyfriend, and Hayden was his younger brother.

I say sort-of because. I'm too shy to admit it. >n>. 

Kayden was a 'bookie' as my friend Courtney called him. He read books. A lot. But he played Lacrosse and participated in XC. He also played violin. Knew some German and was overall a pretty damn smart student. 

My parents didn't really know about him though. o.o"

Still confused about how they didn't know.

Oh well.

Layslie asked me a few days ago if I would date anyone this year after my 8 month thing with Kayden.

I said probably not, but things change. Y'know?

Just please no drama this year.

Please

Please

Please

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Peace out, stay strong, and remember: YOLO.

Anime Promotion: Free! - Iwatobi Swim Club

Love this anime. Not only is it packed with stunning sexy and handsome males, each has their own adorable personality, and the end song is catchy as fuck.

Let me tell you a bit.

Haruka is obviously the main character. He's pretty sexy. His hair flips, hot damn. He loves water, mackerel and pineapple. If there's a pool, he's in. He swims free.

Maka (yay nickname) is fucking adorable. He's that one helpful nice guy that most people would overlook, especially since his best friend is Haruka.

Nagisa is the cutest. But he is secretly all about the sex. (Headcanons) I love him!!

I'm not going to say anything about the other characters, or the plot because I don't give away spoilers in promotions.

[ by the way if you're reading this and you watched episode 6, the feels ]

My Summer In A Nutshell

So as I'm laying here at 10:24 PM, my window open and the cool air entering my room, I can hear miscellaneous creatures calling each other. For though I don't live near the 'country', I can still see some stars and feel like I do live there. Maybe it's the deer and coyotes that walk by the river. Maybe it's the rusted hunting traps. Or maybe it's nights like these where I stay up listening to the calls. And all I can think about is how in the movies, when boys come to throw rocks at your window and the girls are all pissy.. Wouldn't it be great to lay on the grass somewhere with someone you like? To not even talk, but let the quiet sounds of calls fill the air between you?

Anywho. That's not my summer. Maybe some lucky girls'.

My summer has been mainly uneventful until mid-July, where everything picked up. One day I'm doing nothing except chores and using the computer, the next dripping sweat at Tennis Conditioning. Hard work indeed. It was like a miniature boot camp. And for those here that are about to go complain about how you have to work soooo much harder, shut your bloody trap. I don't want to hear it. After that grueling hour and a half I went home, showered, sung my heart out. Watch any shows on. Usually Masterchef on Wednesday and Castle re-runs whenever they turn on. (OMG I hear coyotes howling! It's so beautiful. I think if someone heard them, they would understand why one day I want to live in the country. And.. They are gone again. Coyotes are whispers on the wind where I live..)  I can't wait until Once Upon A Time (new season) comes on.

Somewhere between the start of Conditioning and the beginning of August was when I won my tennis trophy. First place with my partner, Alex. Still proud of both of us. Of course, I was still not on the high school tennis team yet. I was still trying out!

Tryouts were rough, but not as bad as conditioning. Not as many insane exercises, more tennis. I played a new person every day, and what can I say? It was great. I really admire this one girl named Taylor, who doesn't deserve to only be on JV. Her dedication and skill should have landed her a Varsity spot, but Varsity is packed with amazing people.

There's this one girl who hates me on the JV team. No idea why. The only reason I can think of is because I beat her in Junior High. She really is a cheater though. Calling things out when they aren't. The spot she has is undeserved, but as long as she does well it's good for the team.

I did make it on the JV team, if you were wondering. Though my rank, I believe should be third singles, I'm happy wherever my coach places me. Even if my mom thinks second doubles is trash compared to first singles, it's all the same. The rank is just an ego boost. If you win first singles you win one point for the team. If you win second doubles you win a point for the team. What's the difference? I wish people would understand that. When people do, things will become a lot less complicated.

I started writing this blog just because one of my friends had one. But now.. Now I realize that this is a spot for me to collect how I feel. I often ramble off, go from one thought to the next until I can't remember what I was thinking of originally. Here I can be an honest person. My blog won't judge me, even if my readers (if any) might.

I guess that everyone expects me to type a little romance in each blog post, but I think that job was done earlier. But some little tips for guys.

- Most girls don't have a favorite song for no reason. Their favorite song represents them. And if they have many favorite songs? It simply means that they are complicated and aren't sure what to think.

- By sending her those messages while she is gone, or little good morning messages, it brings a little smile to her face.

And that's it I guess. I'm not sure why or how I became such a hopeless romantic. But it's good that I can help other people with their relationships.

I Don't Know What This Is

So.. It's been a while. It's been a while.

How are you guys? C:

This blog post is going to mainly about love and life, so if you don't really want my hopeless romantic mushy stuff that's probably going to be in it. Shoo. GET OUTTA HERE.

I was watching Hotel For Dogs yesterday, and anyone who knows me well enough know that I'm a huge baby for sad things. I cried through it. Not really. Almost cried at a few points.

But in the movie, two dogs fall in love in like an instant. Like.

I know I'm no fancy poodle named Juliet but. That is just cruel.

In life, I guess, you are supposed to learn from your mistakes. Some so, some don't.  Some try to, but end up making the same mistake. So I want to tell you a story.

A story of a young girl named Holli. Holli had.. everything she wanted. Friends, her siblings, an education and a few extra events like archery, horseback riding, along with a few singing, dancing and other events. Yeah, she had it all.

But with the terrifying death of her idol and best friend Hector in a terrifying car accident, she lost herself.

She was no longer that happy girl, who could just laugh and not feel herself falling. And sure. It looks like nothing has changed. She still laughs, to this day. Holli is 16 years old, and she has learned well. That smile that she wears all the time, bringing happiness to those who don't know her. A laugh that brings smiles to others.

Sure, she has her haters. But in her mind its all the same. Everyone has their opinions. But in the end, it is what you think of yourself. If you think you are some shy shut-in that no one wants to talk to, you'll become that person. You will literally put SO much stress because of that image that you'll become it.

So when Holli looked at her idol. Her brother and best friend. She wanted to bring other people smiles, even if she didn't feel happy. And so Holli did. Holli is my idol. She is selfless, strong and brave. Many people say we are similar, and indeed we are. But there are differences.

Holli.. Is like my long-lost sister from England. Her second-oldest and one of her best friends Italian-born Vito, makes it easy for Holli to spill her feelings. It troubles Holli to see that Vito almost never laughs and smiles, not like he did when he was younger. When Vito was younger, he was so carefree.

Holli desperately wants to give him back his happiness. And she is willing to give up herself for that cause. Because even though Vito is practically the closest person to Holli that is alive, she is selfless enough to put him in front of her.

I could.. never do that. The idea of having a best friend that knows me, and then giving them up pains me. I just.. Can't imagine it.

But on a happier note, two of my good friends- Shay and Chelle. Which now have the pet name of 'Shaychelle' which sounds like a Southern version of sea shell. Courtesy of yours truly.

Shay is the most adorable guy ever. He is somewhat shy, but has a great sense of humor. A good singer and pianist too.

Chelle is a sweet girl, who has the most adorable fashion sense. One of the best singers on my team.

Both of them have had secret crushes for like 5ever. And finally Shay asked her out. I swear everyone in the club literally had some kind of over dramatic thing to do. Even Matt, who honestly couldn't care about relationships, said, "FINALLY."

I have been bugging him about if for a long time.

And yeah.

Peace out.

Remember, YOLO.

Stay strong and don't get yourself down.

HolliKyo/AccompanyPolaris

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