A lot of stuff has been going on this week. May Dance was not as great as I hoped, but thank goodness for Jen. She spent the entire thing with me! And we had a great time together Rick-Rolling people, screaming and dancing like the random fuckers we are.
To Lays: Dance fucker dance, you never had a chance. <3
But one of my friends, Kat, who was the most enthusiastic about it, didn't spend any time at all with us, but rather with Tori (someone who everyone thought she hated) and Nate.
The next day Kat totally ignored me. All she did was talk to Tori at Lunch about Nate. She wrote that she didn't want to become Jenna, (who Kat describes as always hanging out with Anand, her boyfriend, and never spending time with her biffles) but I think it's too late.
I have a huge thing against hypocrites because of my mom- who is a major one. I want to space myself from those people. And this isn't the first time. Kat and Jen got into a huge argument about how Jen is always on her tablet. And how Jen has so many devices. Kat gets her first tablet and what does she do? SPEND THE ENTIRE SLEEPOVER WE HAD ON IT. I kept on saying "Lets talk about stuff" but no, too busy surfing on Tumblr.
(Then she says we (mainly Jen) never talk about our problems. And she can never tell her problems to us.
*Facedesk*
I mean we get creds for trying!
I was told to forget a friendship.
Ashie, just like you said, I wrote everything down. This is what I came up with:
She ditched me. I who have always been there for her. It pains me that she told me that she doubted if we ever had a friendship. She always said she wanted a really close friend. Until that day, I always thought she was my closest one. But now I realize that the friendships as one sided... For now this grudge is at high. But if she ditches Jen then I will never forgive her.
I'm sorry it's a few characters over the limit.
What can I do? We went through so much together and she just ditched me.
More notes on hypocritical statements from her:
• "I would rather work on my grades before my lover"
• "In a few years, they (Jenna and Anand) won't even be together, and Jenna will realize that her friends were more important."
We actually took a swear that we would never pick a boy over us. (Me, Jen and Kat)
I just don't understand, I did everything I could. And I hate blaming people, but I feel the only thing I did wrong, was hating hypocrites. Was our entire friendship a lie?
She tells Tori things she would never tell me and Jen.
But then tells me and Jen all the bad things about Tori.
Does she do this to everyone?
I wish she would just realize when people care about her before ditching them.
And maybe it's the tears talking,
But Kat.. You're becoming a bitch.
I honestly hope you and Nate have a good life, and get married.
Because you might not have anyone else.
Try to see things from someone who cares about you before being so rude and thoughtless. You were the closest thing to a best friend. But you made me realize something.
A best friend is a person who offers silent help and comfort, who knows that their opinion matters. Someone who is always there and would never leave you for someone else. Someone that has never betrayed you. Or hurt you. Someone who always understands, or even if not, offers their help in any way. Hates someone just because they have wronged you deeply. And never wishes for a better friend than you.
And that person is Jen.
Because Jen, I feel like I connect to you so much. I feel that we both can plays devil's advocate and can see everything from every side, and I believe that's why we've never had a severe fight. (I actually can't think of any fights, but that may be because I'm crying my face off)
And to end things on a happy note,
NUGGET BISCUIT NUGGET IN A BISCUIT DIP IT ALL IN MASH POTATOES !
-Written, 9:42 PM. May 21.
P.S What should I do with the anklet I got from Kat? Recently it's been stabbing me in the ankle.. Should've taken it as a sign.. But I think now I will keep it in my desk. To remind me of what I once had. And to remind me that my opinion is important.
